I smelled her, like a wild dog, salivating my desire, a breaded path for others like me to follow, and her smell I could not refuse, her smell I would not be but a captive of, my arms hanging limply at my sides, the weight of the shackles stretching my digits towards the ground I welcomed and longed for, and her smell, you could slice it with a knife, serving it with a very old sipping whiskey, taking small breaths in between small sips, the fear of coughing, the reaction to the heated conquest of the whiskey, and the fear of coughing, her smell would sit as an elderly chapperone, casting a menacing eye at any air in the lungs daring to sha
Her fashion, once learned is glamorous and decaying, blinding in it's razor sharpness, awaiting the faintest scent of blood to arouse within her the fatal, paralyzing, machinations hidden by her deceitful nature. And I love her; I pine, balling my fists and tightening my elbow and knee joints in response to separation from her, and my eyes, my eyes squinting there support as my hands grip my face wishing and wanting to pull off the flesh, away from her dangers and sickness my eyelids want only to remain sealed eternally, seeing existence as a shared path with her, and all else naught.
I am the addict enamored and possessed writhing for her a
that joke is my posture after a long day of ridicule
bent and stooped hunched and twisted appearing in
most respects to have many layers of disjointed
bones yet without all the fanfare the glitz glamour
just bones on top of bones smashed at odd angles
that appear to have a pattern a common thing
yes a thing but no nothing instinctual covering
up of and hiding behind the insides and always a
little bit more inconspicous is the hammer that
drives my bones as if nails against nails with
little or no wood to adhere to against each other
grating coughing carreening
little lost kids
i could imagine sc
oh hell amidst the family i would lie through my
teeth and balance perilously on the boundaries i
abhore i would pretend to pretend dislike and even
sometimes i would smother my head in bandages
wailing hoarsely and cowering from their crackly
skinned hands as they sought to poke and prod in the
guise of caring and all the while i act as if i had
jarred my brain to the point of non-remembrance
hoping they would take advantage of the situation
and abandon me at last at long last ever since she
had gone they dont even come close to the back
scratching mindless nakedness that i had we had
lost ourselves in inside i shudderred inside
a failed re-enactment of life by CaligulaReplicant, literature
Literature
a failed re-enactment of life
I asked her how the air felt seeping softly past the graying visions her eyes once beheld, and to this she smiled as she did in the years before when life was light and pain was superficial, and her anger and her joy could not be distinguished from one another, even when laying side by side, and how they blended as one at just the right moment to become an urgent message writhing in their bottle, Siamese wish givers and doers of unto each other and under muscular arms in ages gone and still holding some form they now wanted to nurture carrying ever so delicately the twitch that would make us or break us on the very edge of life hearing in her
I smelled her, like a wild dog, salivating my desire, a breaded path for others like me to follow, and her smell I could not refuse, her smell I would not be but a captive of, my arms hanging limply at my sides, the weight of the shackles stretching my digits towards the ground I welcomed and longed for, and her smell, you could slice it with a knife, serving it with a very old sipping whiskey, taking small breaths in between small sips, the fear of coughing, the reaction to the heated conquest of the whiskey, and the fear of coughing, her smell would sit as an elderly chapperone, casting a menacing eye at any air in the lungs daring to sha
Her fashion, once learned is glamorous and decaying, blinding in it's razor sharpness, awaiting the faintest scent of blood to arouse within her the fatal, paralyzing, machinations hidden by her deceitful nature. And I love her; I pine, balling my fists and tightening my elbow and knee joints in response to separation from her, and my eyes, my eyes squinting there support as my hands grip my face wishing and wanting to pull off the flesh, away from her dangers and sickness my eyelids want only to remain sealed eternally, seeing existence as a shared path with her, and all else naught.
I am the addict enamored and possessed writhing for her a
that joke is my posture after a long day of ridicule
bent and stooped hunched and twisted appearing in
most respects to have many layers of disjointed
bones yet without all the fanfare the glitz glamour
just bones on top of bones smashed at odd angles
that appear to have a pattern a common thing
yes a thing but no nothing instinctual covering
up of and hiding behind the insides and always a
little bit more inconspicous is the hammer that
drives my bones as if nails against nails with
little or no wood to adhere to against each other
grating coughing carreening
little lost kids
i could imagine sc
oh hell amidst the family i would lie through my
teeth and balance perilously on the boundaries i
abhore i would pretend to pretend dislike and even
sometimes i would smother my head in bandages
wailing hoarsely and cowering from their crackly
skinned hands as they sought to poke and prod in the
guise of caring and all the while i act as if i had
jarred my brain to the point of non-remembrance
hoping they would take advantage of the situation
and abandon me at last at long last ever since she
had gone they dont even come close to the back
scratching mindless nakedness that i had we had
lost ourselves in inside i shudderred inside
mockingbirds don't s i n g. by ShortAxel, literature
Literature
mockingbirds don't s i n g.
"I think. . .that I'm drowning."
Today was more about living, and yesterday was more about drugs.
I remember the first day you took me by the hand and lead me into the city, exposing my pale flesh to the world like a Broadway show in the middle of Times Square. The homeless in the shadows watched you spin me in circles, making me dance, and the rich children in movie-star clothes stopped in their tracks and dropped their Frisbees, while the famous in the limousines called the world to a stop.
Everyone stopped and starred with awe in their crystal eyes as you twirled me around your finger, dipped me into the Fountains of Youth, and held me
Slice the lies
Spread the hurt
Add some salt
Squeeze the wound
Put on the mask
Take off the shirt
Retrace your steps
Back to the ground
Swallow the fires
Breathe the fumes
Absorb the toxins
Drink the ash
Hide away in your hole
As your body wastes away
Forget all your abilities
And accept your new destiny
Poisoned by your thoughts
Disguised by your words
Abused by your hand
Revealed by your eyes
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Favourite Visual Artist
Egon Schielle
Favourite Movies
Sante Sangre, Reflecting Skin, Henry and June, Bladerunner, Lydia Lunch's flicks